Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Welcome Back Me :)



I went to write a new blog... and while I couldn't log into my account :)

It has been a long while. Many moments have passed by, many filled with joy, happiness, much laughter, some sadness... but one constant friend. It is so good to know God through the trials and joys of day to day life.

Today, February 21, marks a special occasion. Today I said goodbye to the beloved nail polish that remained on my toes from my sister's wedding :) My toes feel a tad naked yet they are loving the freedom. My sister was married on September 2nd, it was a beautiful slightly rainy day. Todd and Heather Anderson, a beautiful union. The wedding took place in the late afternoon. It was a restless night for me. I ventured to the washroom in the middle of the night to only hear the voice of my lovely sister. She couldn't sleep. So I went into her room and slept on and off there for the rest of the night, I didn't have a bed. However, I wouldn't trade those moments for anything in the world. I also expect that if the time comes for me to experience marriage, she will be there at the foot of my bed comforting me with her presence the night before the wedding. It was a good day. I also know what I don't want on my wedding day, what I do want and perhaps eloping has become something more appealing yet more of a dream than a reality :)

It is true, Heather and Todd are now expecting their first child in August. The excitment continues and I'm sure the showers will begin in no time. My dad did begin this own personal blog...which reminds me of my own as he has not posted in quite sometime. However, my brother has not taken to riding bulls in a bull riding country, contrary to popular belief :)

I'm doing well. I started Teacher's College (part-time) at Trent University late August. I love it. The year is passing quickly and the knowledge that I am gaining continues to encourage and motivate me to learn and experience more. I have made friends from this program that I am able to start anew with. They know nothing about me except that I want to teach. It has been a joy to get to know them, for me to know more about myself. It has been interesting and eye opening to see how others perceive me. Not quite sweet and innocent ;) I knit with one. I share the knowledge of Christ and His love with another. I respond to one's challenge as he edge's me on in Movement, Physical Education and Dance, also known as gym :) I always rise to a challenge. I laugh as the class clown remarks at each given opportunity. I observe the keeners during class and know that I will never be that motivated for marks. I do what is expected, my marks reflect that. I am passing with flying colours :)

I continue to work at Christian Horizons and Northview Day Care. I enjoy both. The children at the daycare bless my heart. The smiles, the laughter and the love that they share so willingly. I love the people at Christian Horizons. It is a joy to learn from the staff and individuals alike. I will miss them terribly. My plan is to move to Ajax come May. I hope to transfer to Durham Christian Horizons. I will be commuting next year to finish courses for Teacher's College. That's my update :)

I read a book recently. While I read a lot of books recently. I love to read. This one book was about family. A birth, lies, regrets, distance, broken marriages, hopes, dreams and redemption. It is a story about Paul and Phoebe, twins born in 1964. They were separated at birth because one was born with Down Syndrome. The fathers intentions were to spare his wife the pain of raising a Down Syndrome daughter and in reality it caused so much more for all involved. The book was touching, it was painful, it was hard, it was deep and it was lovely.

Last night during Science and Social Studies, I overheard a conversation from one of my classmates. She's a mother. She has a family. She had tests done while pregnant to test for certain 'defects'. She said that if the tests had shown Downs, the pregnancy would have been terminated. It didn't. She is a living, breathing 'normal' child. My uncle has Downs, however it doesn't define who he is. Yes, he is stubborn, yes he does look different, yes he doesn't always understand... I am stubborn, I don't always understand and to others I may look different... but he is affectionate, he is loving and he enjoys life with a passion that only he can experience. You can't take that away from a person.

It saddens me that some will never experience that deep love and understanding.

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